I've been struggling with episodes of bulimia and anorexia since I was eight years old. When I managed to chose recovery, the mental illness manifested itself into addiction to drugs alcohol and sex. This is my journey through relapse, recovery, and giving in.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Dinner results
Typical. I threw up and up and up and away. I knew I would. Weak bitch. I'm trying so hard to be healthy. I noticed that I was really snappy, almost mean before I got food in me. I think I should up my diet a bit. But fuck. Five times in one night.
Hi. I read a couple of your posts and wanted to offer you some advice: when you didn't succeed, you thought of yourself as a "weak bitch." That kind of self-disparagement actually makes it more likely that you'll continue to not succeed. The next time it happens, tell yourself something like, "well, I didn't manage to keep the food down, but I did (kind thing a) and (difficult thing b). In short, don't be so hard on yourself. Good luck!
Hi. I read a couple of your posts and wanted to offer you some advice: when you didn't succeed, you thought of yourself as a "weak bitch." That kind of self-disparagement actually makes it more likely that you'll continue to not succeed. The next time it happens, tell yourself something like, "well, I didn't manage to keep the food down, but I did (kind thing a) and (difficult thing b). In short, don't be so hard on yourself. Good luck!
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